This year started off on a rather gloomy note. On the Tuesday after the New Year, I was informed my position was being eliminated. This didn't come as much of a surprise - the writing was on the wall. And I understood. But there is a far leap between understanding why it might happen, and it actually happening.
It's strange, though. I'm not too spooked about the road ahead. In some ways made peace with the decision long before it was decided. Mix that with my positive and upbeat attitude, "aint nobody gonna break-a my stride". Here are a few other reasons why I'm not drowning my sorrows.
The Support I've Seen
Since hearing of my positions elimination, the support has been incredible. From twitter, to texts, to e-mails and phone calls - it's all been nothing but support. Funny enough, I have felt the most distance from those with whom I feel closest. Those who have been there to support me, though, have done me an incredible service.
It's been like a trust fall. But they don't catch me with their arms. They catch me with one of those giant parachutes from fourth-grade gym class. I say "they" because so many have reached out. And the only thing big enough for a trust fall of that size is one of those awesome parachutes.
New Year, New Fun
What better way to start a new year than with a new career? Some people might not approach it that way, but why not? Maybe it's because I don't have that many current responsibilities. Sure I need to feed myself and my dog, but other than that I'm alright. I don't need a lot of things. I thank last year for that. But seriously, as sucky as it is, what a great opportunity to start fresh?
A fresh start is a fresh start. So I'm grateful and excited and at the same time nervous with anticipation.
Worried? Not One Bit
It's been almost two weeks since I heard the news. My last day is fast approaching. Reality has set in a bit more since, but I'm still trucking along. I can't begin to scratch the surface of how grateful I am for the network of amazing people in Minneapolis. It is amazing.
That's the biggest reason I'm not worried. Yeah, my income stream is about to dry up. I have student loans up the ying. But I know there are hundreds of people who have my back. It's a special feeling knowing there are people who support you more than you ever thought. So if you're reading this, and you've reached out to me in any way, I can't begin to express my gratitude. I'll do so in the form of a beverage - i.e. coffee - but that, too, won't do it justice.
- Surround yourself with incredible people. I've done that and these people have helped me reach my current zen-like state.
- Know that things will always get better - no matter what. They may get worse before they get better, but the sun will always rise, and the storm will always pass.
- Seek out the beauty in the unknown. Shit - I don't know where I'll end up. I can't imagine myself anywhere other than my current position, but soon that'll change. And I don't know where that is yet! There is something exciting there. Embracing the unknown is one of life's scariest things, but greatest treasures. Without the unknown, we can never grow.